Welcome back to the Broken Crayons Still Color podcast! I’m your host, Shelley Hitz and today’s guest is Michele Davenport.
Michele was thrust into abuse from a very early age. She survived the first 22 years of her life by the grace of God. She was molested at eleven at an amusement park, raped by my Uncle, date raped by a boy she trusted, a victim of a heroine addict mother who was dealing with her own demons as she was dealing with mine. She was held hostage by a drug dealer who was my step dad at the time, left alone, abandoned to her own demise BUT God found her in the ditch, He pulled her out, resuscitated her life and made her into a new creation by the blood of His son. She shares her powerful story in today’s podcast.
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SHELLEY. Welcome back to the Broken Crayons Still Color podcast! I’m your host, Shelley Hitz and today’s guest is Michele Davenport. Welcome! Michele.
MICHELE. Thank you! Hi Shelley.
SHELLEY. So thankful that you are willing to come on and share your story and you know all of my guests have such a variety of stories and it just goes to show you God has created us all different each one of our story’s is different but each of our stories matters. So today I just want to share a little bit about your story and then we will dive right in to the interview.
SHELLEY. Michele was thrust into abuse from a very early age. She survived the first 22 years of her life by the grace of God. She was molested at eleven at an amusement park, raped by an Uncle, date raped by a boy she trusted, she was a victim of a heroine addict, mother who was dealing with her own demons and she was held hostage by a drug dealer, left alone, abandoned to her own demise BUT God found her and made her into a new creation by the blood of His son. She is going to shares this powerful story in today’s podcast.
So welcome Michele, and just to get started share with us a little bit of just what these broken crayons in your life looked like.
MICHELE. Well Shelley, this is what it did for me. When I was 4 and my first memory is when I was 4 – my mom had divorce my dad and we moved in to an apartment and I was woken up by a loud bang. And then moments later my dad was in my bedroom and he pulled me out of my bunk bed took me in to a living room where he proceeded to beat and raped my mother and made me watched.
SHELLEY. Oh wow
MICHELE. And I just cannot tell you from that first memory what It did as far as what opinion of who a father was. And so from that day forward each man she married left its mark and made me question what a true father look like.
SHELLEY. Right, and you know you had layer after layer of trauma and abused and so many things that could totally just destroy you. But what would you say was the lowest point in all of these within your story?
MICHELE. I’m so excited that you ask this one question because of this the lowest point in my life was when I chose to repeat the pattern that was set before me.
MICHELE. When I chose to get engaged to a drug addict. And that was by far the lowest point of my life.
SHELLEY. Wow. You know there are generational pattern, there are things that happen and so what was the turning point for you? Like you found yourself now in almost the same position that you had experience in growing up in, what was the turning point?
MICHELE. Okay – the turning point for me is when I decided to do something different. So I decided to moved away from Texas and moved to Missouri. My mother had met her 7th and last husband, married him and moved to Missouri. And she asked me to come visit her and I helped her moved there and I ended meeting the husband I have now and been married 30 years this July.
So the turning point for me Shelley is this, when I really got a hold of I didn’t want to repeat the pattern any longer in my life so I broke the engagement off to a drug addict and got engaged and fell in love with a marine.
SHELLEY. Wow! Now how did God work in all of these as far as just really redeeming you and changing you and transforming you?
MICHELE. Well I wasn’t raised a Christian as you probably figured out by now. My mom knew God she wasn’t living for God and the turning point for me like I said when I met and married my husband now that I have. 2 years in our marriage we started out so in the same pattern from both of our childhood were very abusive in alcohol and we just started out in that pattern but 2 years into our marriage one night, we’ve been out drinking and we were talking about getting a divorce and Shelley it was in that moment that we decided we are not going to do this.
We are not going to keep repeating the same pattern our parents repeated. So that day we stop drinking and a couple of months later we found a church, got involved with a church, went out to the altar for prayer – I don’t care what they were offering for prayer that day we were up there praying for God sake heal our hearts and heal us.
SHELLEY. Wow. Yeah, you know there were several points that you had to make intentional decisions and you had the picture in front of you, you had this reality in front of you and it was like okay what are we going to do, what am I going to do – am I going to continue the patterns of my parents, what I learned, what I grew up with or am I going to do something different.
Now some of these patterns can really really be deeply engrained and if somebody is listening right now and maybe they are in a similar position, they’re in that spot where they know they need to change the repeating some of the patterns that they’ve learn growing up but they just don’t know what to do next. Do you have any advice or encouragement for someone in that position?
MICHELE. I absolutely do Shelley. Romans 12:2 I got hold of this scripture like none other besides of Mark 11:25 which talks about forgiveness but in Romans 12:2 says this “Do not conform to this world any longer but be transformed by the renewing of your mind.” Do not be conformed to the pattern of this world any longer but be transformed by the renewing of your mind.”
So two things stuck out to me there. Don’t follow the pattern of the world even if its of your parents. And be transformed by the renewing of your mind which means get in to the word and renew your mind with the word of God. And the only way that we are not going to be stitch in to the same pattern is to allow God to stitch a new one.
SHELLEY. Amen. You know when you were reading that verse after just telling your story and I know we could talk for hours just because you have so much to share but it just gives me chills. Coz’ I’ve heard that verse over and over and over but then hearing it in perspective of your story so powerful and I mean it sounds so easy but I’m sure the day to day living it out isn’t always easy for you, hasn’t always been easy for you and I just want our listeners to know like it’s a day by day, step by step process. But where you at now Michele like how is God using you now in this place of your life?
MICHELE. I minister all over, speaking at women’s conferences. I have a ministry called Faith Builder Ministries and we hold 2 women’s conferences a year imparting vertical hope into other women. I do vertical hope videos on Facebook and I’ve written my 5th book just recently “Made for More and Save for Something.”
So, God is just using me in powerful ways from the very beginning when I decided to submit to Him and be made whole. He has been using my life and my husband’s life for him to teach men and for me to minister to women. It’s such been an incredible journey and it has taken time to be healed and made whole but it was worth the process.
SHELLEY. Oh yes, so true and I mean you are just such an example of how God can take our mess and create a masterpiece. Now if someone really resonated with your story, would love to hear more, would love to learn more from you of how the steps you’ve went through and how God took you to this process of transformation. Where can they find you online?
MICHELE. They can find any of my books on amazon.com but they also can find me on Facebook Faith Builders Ministries Inc. you can’t forget the INC because that’s important but anyway they can find me on Facebook as well. There’s several options.
I didn’t want to say this Shelley but as when I was praying over the broken crayon still color this is what the Lord spoke to my spirit this morning He said “broken color still color but it doesn’t mean they need to color in the same pattern. Some of you out there its time to get a new coloring book.” And that’s what He laid on my heart for whoever is listening today.
SHELLEY. Yes! I love that, that is so powerful because yeah sometimes we’re coloring in that same coloring book, the same patterns.
SHELLEY. And we can make a decision – God can help us and we can choose to start coloring in a new pattern, in a new coloring book.
MICHELE. Yeah, that’s right.
SHELLEY. And I love that, I love the visual of that and I just hope that our listeners will find you on Facebook and then her name is Michele Davenport – M I C H E L E if you want to find her books in amazon. So thank you so much for being here Michele and sharing your story.
MICHELE. Your bet. Thank you for having me Shelley.
SHELLEY. And thank you for listening and joining us today. If you are someone you know has a powerful story to share I would love to have you on the show, you can apply to be featured on this podcast at shelleyhitz.com/story and we will see next time, bye!
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